From 096bfc92ec33cf2ecdc7508c70c627e03f1b4d9b Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: Ari Archer Date: Tue, 27 Jun 2023 03:47:33 +0300 Subject: [PATCH] update @ Tue 27 Jun 03:47:33 EEST 2023 Signed-off-by: Ari Archer --- blog.json | 6 ++++++ 1 file changed, 6 insertions(+) diff --git a/blog.json b/blog.json index bd8fe51..9072db1 100644 --- a/blog.json +++ b/blog.json @@ -612,6 +612,12 @@ "content": "today i was talking to people about trans stuff as i am trans myself, it all\nstarted by me talking to one of my friends about it bc she wanted to so yh, we did,\nand i thought it might be interesting to share\n\nso, the topics will include :\n\n- suicide\n- gender dysphoria\n- other social issues\n- transitioning\n- medicine\n- discrimination\n- harsh reality of being trans\n\nkeep in mind, i am no professional or anything, ill just be talking from my personal\nexp, other trans ppl i met exp and publically available statistics, and obv not talking\nfor every trans person\n\nso, i feel like its an undeniable fact that being trans isnt just roses, tulips, cakes\nwith cherries on top and strawberry scented perfume, its a constant fight for your rights,\nquestioning, discrimination, genocide and suicide\n\ntrans people are very suicidal, and do u rlly think its a coincidence,\n[the statistics speak for themselves](https:\/\/pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov\/32345113\/)\nand its only proven by the fact that terms like\n[transgender suicide](https:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Transgender_genocide)\nexist, not only that, theres many other publically available statistics that just\nprove my fucking point, no matter how much i fucking say it, like\n[worse healthcare and more addiction, mental illness, etc ( w : statistic from 2015 but i doubt much has changed )](https:\/\/www.amsa.org\/action-committee\/gender-and-sexuality\/transgender-health\/)\ni could go on and on about statistics, but these are just few things out of like a billion\nthings why being trans sucks, which also should be enough proof for transphobes that being\ntrans is in fact, not a choice\n\ncontinuing the saga, being trans alone is literally close to fucking impossible,\nbeing individualistic is hard bc of discrimination, how the world treats you and so on,\nsuicide rates are high as mentioned, meaning having someone is def needed, getting\nproper trans care is hard, waitlists are long ( 1-3 yrs from what ive searched )\neven then its not guaranteed to be good healthcare, people wait for yrs to get it\nand people die in the process due to usually, well, mentioned suicide, even if u\nmanage to wait it out, ull have to do it again, and again, and again, it never stops,\nthe system is built to kill and torment trans people\n\ni also feel like a 'diagnosis' for gender dysphoria is complete and utter bullshit, i mean\nwhy do i have to prove if im 'trans enough' to transition, do cis people have to prove theyre\n'cis enough' to get hormones, for example cis men getting TRT, they can just go to their\ngeneral practitioner and get it, but oh if a trans person needs it they have to go through\nmultiple psychologists and psychiatrists, get on multiple large wait time waitlists, try to\nget a prescription, lie, face many troubles just to do the same thing cis people can get done\nin a couple of days lol, it feels like this is just an extra step and an excuse for trans\ngenocide, this also enforces an idea of 'transgender = mental illness' bc you have to\nget a diagnosis to be 'medically' trans\n\nin the mean time we can only continue fighting, expressing ourselves, protesting,\ntalk to people, educate them, share\nour experiences, call out, poke fun and just show how ridiculous this transphobia rooted system\nis, how fucked up and deranged it is, hopefully more people understand it and accept it instead\nof being trans seen as a shameful thing people should be killed for, we, as trans people,\nhave to work as a community if we want greater good for us ( current generation of trans\npeople ) and future generations of trans people and thankfully we realised this way before\nand are working towards, so if youre trans or an ally, dont be quiet, educate, support,\ndo something about it,\ndont stick to an individualistic mindset of 'what will this do *to me, and only me specifically*',\nthink about what will it achieve for the whole community rather than you specifically\n\nand for future generations of transgender people, you are 'trans enough' even if that exists\n\nand as per my personal exp, its not good either, i mean its gotten better over the yrs and\nlithuania is moving forward, but its very far from perfect and its still a very anti-lgbt\ncountry which has a lot of room to improve, not even related to lgbt stuff, in general, lithuania\nis piss, online i still get quite a bit of transphobia and many people like to use the fact\nthat im trans to make me look bad, which is extremely stupid, but oh well, what can u\nexpect from transphobes right lmao,,\n\nanyway, the final message id like to leave before going is : let go of your self-centered mindset\nand work towards the greater good of the entire transgender community, including yourself,\ndont remain in the shadows of ignorance, instead, raise your voice and fight for equal rights until\nwe are all treated as human beings once again\n", "time": 1684866572.491509, "keywords": "trans transgender transtrender lgbt gay health healthcare mental mentalhealth transteen statistic life help suicide support fight rights equal equalrights people social socialissues sociology motivation controversial transphobia anti-lgbt homophobia ftm mtf philosophy psychology" + }, + "doml-6-2023-06-27": { + "title": "Doml #6 -- 2023\/06\/27", + "content": "\ud83e\udd9e crab\n\nsorry for not updating yall for this long, i just dont have the energy to do anything lol\n\nanyway, stuff that happened throughout the month+ that i havent written about my boring life lol,\n\nmost major thing what happened -- gave eating disorder recovery a try, as ive mentioned before, i\nstruggle with anorexia, so i tried recovery, uh, that didnt go well, i tried at 05\/28 and gave up\nat 06\/10, i had no energy, i felt like shit physically and mentally, genuinely piss, i hated every\nsecond of it lol, it was torture, im basically stuck in it even though it doesnt bring me any\njoy anymore, i mean its a 24\/7 coping mechanism that keeps me from going insane lol, once i started\nrecovery i had 2 friends who rlly helped, but its not enough as bad as it sounds, i need medicine or\nsomething, i dont want to go to a lithuanian mental health hospital, its hell there with anorexia,\nthey feed u 2000 kcal shakes, through tubes if needed, mentally they do shit and overall its just\nhorrible from what ive heard lol, overall it sucks, but oh well, back to anorexia i guess\n\nanother major thing happened -- end of academic yr; at the end we had a shitload of tests, i felt\noverwhelmed and not good, did cry abt it ( skill issue frfr ), next yr ill be a 10 th grader, which\nmeans i had to pick an annual project to work on for school, subject i picked was psychology, more\nabt it in the future probably, its basically going to be a study of emotional health in the\nschool\n\nat around the same time the annual city event was happening, i hated it too, i feel like shit\nafter shit like that lol\n\nat the end of the academic yr, like last 2 ( ? ) weeks we had practical study days where we\njust do shit and as i picked biology and chem ( joined ) i did that --\n\n- first day was going to the water cleaning centre or whatever in my city in hot sun, which was fun ig\n- second day ( which in the first half i wasnt in ) was me going to another water cleaning thing 8 km\n away from the city\n- third day was work from home, took like 10-20 mins iirc it was just some chem thing, at the time\n the recovery shit was hitting me hard and i had so little energy i just wanted to get rid of my organs\n so i wouldnt waste my last energy on that as weird as it sounds\n- fourth day was us going to the baltic sea, i hated that day the most, felt like shit, didnt want to be there\n and overall i hated it, never again, i just ew, bad, no, gross, vomit inducing even\n- day five was my favourite, it was like 1 min work -- \"create a math problem related to bio+chem PSD\", so i did lol\n\noverall it was ew\n\nat 06\/09-10 i worked on painting my laptop lol, its basically a space fight between linux, windows and macos\nand linux is winning, best i can describe it in text i guess and am not motivated enough to photograph it rn,\nmaybe some other day but not now lol, i painted it with acrylic paint and did the sketch with a white pencil,\ni like it i guess\n\nnext days werent rlly eventful, it was random school shit and i did nothing as i was a dysfunctional\nvegetable, still am but getting better, then the summer break started fr and i made a friend as a concert\nhappened and one of my friends forced me to come basically, although im glad, i got to make a new friend\nand honestly shes fun, i probably did more with her throughout a week than i did with most people in a yr lol\nbut oh well\n\nhonestly id write more, but i just dont care enough to, i dont have the energy, brain power or anything to\ncontinue ranting abt my boring ass life, goodnight\n", + "time": 1687816034.886614, + "keywords": "doml ari-web-doml day of my life dayofmylife school anorexia ana recovery mental health city energy exhaustion bad terrible ew piss istg i will fucking jump off a roof its pissing me off how everything is so piss" } } } \ No newline at end of file