From 19ee70f24750c3674f321dffd809279a32dbdde4 Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: Ari Archer Date: Sun, 9 Apr 2023 15:51:10 +0300 Subject: [PATCH] update @ Sun 9 Apr 15:51:10 EEST 2023 Signed-off-by: Ari Archer --- blog.json | 6 ++++++ 1 file changed, 6 insertions(+) diff --git a/blog.json b/blog.json index b31c506..20db0cb 100644 --- a/blog.json +++ b/blog.json @@ -551,6 +551,12 @@ "content": "shit shit shit shit shit\n\ntoday has been **_shit_**, i hated existing at every moment of today,\nthere was nothing good about this\n\nfirst, short but painful day, i was tired today, shit ( but short ) lessons\nand just bad, then the first 2 classes were lithuanian, made my lithuanian\nteacher hate me, she even basically said for me to shut up, but yk, in a corporate\ntype of way, like 'stfu nobody cares' => 'please dont say anything else', i had to\npresent a thing with my group and i was stuttering, i was very stressed, i\ncant speak without stuttering when im stressed, i have to either talk really fast\nor i stutter, in this case both happened, my lithuanian teacher got pissed at me\nand now she probably hates me, then i had to rate my own work, i did my work, i\nworked with my group, i helped to manage the group and shit so i rated myself 4\/10\nfor at least doing the work, then i realised my friend didnt like my opinion\nabout the thing i was presenting and probably another reason why the lithuanian\nteacher told me to stop talking mid way through my reading, so i corrected my grade\nfrom 4\/10 to a 3\/10, i could lie and give myself a 10\/10 like most others, but i really\ndont want to get into trouble and just get an even worse grade than 3\/10 lol, this is\nmy reasoning why i gave myself a 3\/10 to my teacher ( translated from lithuanian to english ) :\n\n> 4\/10, i was working but when i presented, i got very stressed and nervous about\n> it, i don't think i should get a 2 because i helped the team, worked,\n> did my part of the job and tried to organize the team\n> ( for example, i helped to assign tasks, tried to manage [ classmate's ] refusal to work,\n> i checked how things were going, etc.), but i dont know how well i did and it was\n> clear that the teacher didn't like my part,\n> so considering everything, i think i should get at least a passing grade -- 4.\n\n> 3\/10 that + my opinion was bad\n\nmy opinion about the book i was presenting was this ( once again translated ) :\n\n> i did not like the book \"benedikto slenk\u0161\u010diai\" .\n> this book seemed superficial and boring to me .\n> the first chapter was not bad, as it talked about benedicts childhood,\n> but the other slenk\u0161\u010diai, when he grew up,\n> were tedious and i barely wanted to read them .\n>\n> in my opinion, the author described benedicts life in too much detail,\n> which could have been conveyed in a shorter way .\n> also, there are not enough interesting details in the book\n> that could inspire the reader to read further .\n> the last chapters ( slenk\u0161\u010diai ) were sad and poor, with a lot written about sex and love,\n> as if we hadnt read about it in recent years .\n> in my opinion, the author also described these\n> topics in too much detail, which could have been conveyed\n> in a shorter way, but with more interest .\n>\n> my final rating for this book would be 4\/10,\n> because although the book is not the worst,\n> it does not have enough interesting details to captivate the reader .\n\nsame thing happened in art, except this time i had points to work with, still got a 3\/10, but\neh, basically i had my work ( mosaic ) finished and the art teacher told me to rate myself, the\npoints ( every point has 2 points max ) were given to me and all i had to do was\nto rate myself, here are the points, scores and reasons i gave :\n\n- methodical work in the lesson, preparation for the lesson\n ( 1 point, i did work in the lesson but i kept forgetting my glue at home\n so i borrowed my friends )\n- originality, interpretation, search for ideas\n ( 0 points, its literally just a paper with pieces of paper glued on representing\n a stupid and badly made flower )\n- artistry ( 0 points, its not artistic nor is it anything pretty )\n- disclosure of topics ( 1 point, the theme was flower and its obviously a flower, but its badly made )\n- technique ( 1 point, i mean i did glue pieces of paper on a sheet of paper )\n\nso yeah, conclusion to this is that i suck at school, i am a literal fucking failure,\ndidnt even manage to get a 4\/10\n\nsince DOML #3 some shit happened too, for example i quit my IT club ( due to depression ),\ni quit therapy ( do i even deserve it lmfao ) and so on, fell back in and out of my depressive episode,\nbegun noticing how much hairloss im having, probably due to anorexia and shit,\ni keep having panic and anxiety attacks, nothing is good,\neverything in my life is going to shit and i cant to anything about it, but at least one funny\nthing happened which is how my physics teacher gave my notebook to the school psychologist\nwithout telling me ALL BECAUSE I WRITE IN SMALL LETTERS ONFG WHAT THE FUCK LMAO\n\ni think my friends also begun hating me, idk, they seem different to me, it feels like\nthey hate me for no reason and it seems to clear to me that they just dont like me\nanymore, i think i should stop talking to them but even then wouldnt that be rude\n\neverything makes me sad and \/ or feels like theyre hating me, its just\nshit\n\nin conclusion i suck, im stupid, everyone and -thing seemingly hates me\nand everything in my life is going to shit and i cannot do anything about it lmao\n\ngoodbye lol, cya next time ig\n", "time": 1680877165.550294, "keywords": "doml day of my life school teachers lithuania lithuanian therapy depression mental health psychologist psychiatrist opinion presentation book grades grading teaching hate episode" + }, + "serverari-webxyz-going-be-changed": { + "title": "Server.ari-web.xyz is going to be changed", + "content": "hello world,\n\ndue to some transphobic, racist and nazist assholes, server.ari-web.xyz will be changed to\nhave more security and shit, i didnt want to do this, but i will add a filter, will add\nharder limiting and bans will become a serious thing, there was some asshole pretending to\nbe me on which spammed the n word, chiristian and transphobic shit,\nnazi idiocy, misinterpretations and quotes from the bible and so on, troll faces, spam,\netc.\n\nthe server will be changed with most likely these changes :\n\n- your ip will be saved\n- there will be a harder rate limit\n- there will be a blacklist\n- the UTC timestamp will be tracked\n\ni really didnt want to become some corporate-like asshole, but i also cannot stand nazi,\nracist, etc. assholes attacking me in my own comments section, i will make the information\ni will be collecting wherever i can and the server will still be open source\n\nthank you for understanding, old ( non malicious since #45 ) comments will be imported\nand the new racist and nazi ones and shit, i saved the nazi and shit comments\n\ni am sorry for messing up and giving people the power of true free speech, i do not\nadvocate for anything the asshole has said and will not make this mistake again, from\nnow on i will be shutting everything down and will be closely moderating it, i am sorry\ni didnt see it sooner\n", + "time": 1681044668.704023, + "keywords": "nazi racist comment attack transphobia trans help sorry" } } } \ No newline at end of file