diff --git a/blog.json b/blog.json index 2d83e3e..1a0d521 100644 --- a/blog.json +++ b/blog.json @@ -632,6 +632,12 @@ "content": "hi, i uh, basically i eat this thing whenever i feel like it and it always turns out nice,\nthis recipe is for 9 quite big dumplings, which is basically around 3 servings of 3 :3\nalthough this is very filling\n\n# ingredients\n\n- filling\n - 100 g of small spinach\n - 2-4 pieces of garlic\n - 1 yellow chilli pepper\n - half a teaspoon of turmeric\n - white part of a leek\n - 1 medium carrot\n - 100 g of firm tofu\n - 30 ml of soya sauce\n - 30 ml of lemon juice\n - 20 g of sesame seeds\n - pinch of salt\n - olive oil\n- dough\n - half a teaspoon of ( freshly ) ground pepper\n - pinch of salt\n - 200 g of flour\n - water\n- baking\n - olive oil\n - tablespoon of soya sauce\n - 1 cup of water\n- serving\n - sweet chilli sauce\n\n# making it\n\n## filling\n\n1. grease your pan with olive oil\n2. put your sesame seeds and turmeric in it\n3. chop garlic and the yellow chilli pepper, mash them together\n4. put mashed up garlic and chilli pepper into the pan\n5. chop up the white part of the leek and put it into the pan\n6. grate the carrot and also put that into the pan\n7. wash and chop your spinach, put it into the pan\n8. take your tofu and crumble it with your hands, put it into the pan\n9. pour in your lemon juice and soya sauce on top of everything\n10. add a pinch of salt\n\ncook everything til everything releases its juices and stops boiling in its own juices, doesnt\nmean the end result has to be dry, it just has to stop boiling, make sure to mix\n\n## dough\n\n1. in a bowl pour in your flour, salt and pepper\n2. mix everything uup\n3. pour water slowly while mixing until it begins forming a dough\n4. begin kneading your dough til it becomes smooth ( might need to add more water or flour in this step )\n\nthe end result should leave you with a barely sticky dough which isnt too hard to form\n\n## making dumplings\n\n1. get a plate ready and coat it in flour\n2. from the dough you have, form wrappers using your hands or tools\n3. fill it with filling and close up the wrapper\n\nrepeat this process til you run out of filling\n\n# baking it\n\n1. take your dumplings and transfer them to an olive oil greased tray\n2. cook your dumplings in a 200 celsius temp until the wrappers begin setting up\n3. pull out your dumplings and let them sit til you proceed with other steps\n4. in a cup of water pour in a tablespoon of soya sauce and mix\n5. grease a pan and put your dumplings in it, put on the lid and let them cook for around 3 minutes\n6. after that pour in like 30 ml of the soya sauce and water into the pan and close the lid right after\n7. let it steam until it stops\n8. open the lid and unstick all dumplings from the bottom of the pan ( say sauce residue will make it stick probably )\n9. let it cook for 5-7 minutes\n10. place them on a plate\n\nkeep in mind that the cooking time depends on the size of the dumplings, keep\nan eye, smaller dumplings will require less time\n\n# serving\n\ni prefer to eat it with chilli sauce so i suggest you try it :)\n\nenjoy\n\n# nutritional value\n\n- calories per serving 421\n- fat 8.1 g \/ 10%\n - saturated fat 1.3 g \/ 7%\n- cholesterol 0 mg \/ 0%\n- sodium 765 mg \/ 33%\n- carbohydrate 73.3 g \/ 27%\n - dietary fibre 5.4 g \/ 19%\n - total sugars 7.3 g\n- protein 14.7 g\n- vitamin d 0 mcg \/ 0%\n- calcium 203 mg \/ 16%\n- iron 6 mg \/ 35%\n- potassium 492 mg \/ 10%\n", "time": 1691679150.844052, "keywords": "vegan recipe dumpling nutrition low-calorie vaganism veggies healthy health spicy dumplings" + }, + "doml-7-2023-08-23": { + "title": "Doml -- #7 2023\/08\/23", + "content": "i have so much to talk about, i am so sorry i havent posted a doml in so long\n\nstart of the summer was pretty chill, i mainly spent it at home, doing nothing, when\none day a friend called me to go out to a concert i was not planning on going to, but\nafter rejecting it once he said 'come anyway' so well, i did, in that concert i donated\nsome money to some org and whatnot and then it was awkward after, although that friend\npicked a random person and basically made us converse, we bonded instantly, lets call\nher 'gzodis', gzodis and me shared a lot of same problems, doctors even, in general life\nstuff and we bonded over it, turns out her friend is also my crush and she knows a lot\nof mutuals and whatnot, gzodis then joined my friend grp, she was a good fit, it was fun\nbut thats where the lore starts\n\ngzodis is very extroverted and i am very introverted, meaning i had to adapt, we hung\nout basically daily and stuff, we did a fuckton of shit together, for example get high\ntogether, write a fuckton of shit under bridges and whatnot, many sentimental things like\nthat and genuinely i feel like shes my best friend even after like idk 2-3 months of knowing her\nas of today, she is genuinely amazing and we click together, although we do face issues\n\nfirst major thing that happened had police involved even, i dont feel comfortable sharing\nher name and let alone details of this, but i ran out in shorts on midnight to call police,\nthey showed up in 11 fucking minutes ( WHEN IT WAS ***EXTREMELY*** URGENT )\nbut anyway, besides that, it went horribly, turned out to be a false alarm, but a very loud\nand scary false alarm, this shit made both of us feel like total shit, it broke down\nour relationship terribly and we thought wed never talk again, at that time i just couldnt\nmyself, trauma, trauma i say, during that week a fuckton of shit more happened, overall,\nhorrible shit and it just oof, it broke down her, me and her friends ( her friends are\nan inseparable part of her so usually how she feels affects her friends in a similar way\ni feel like, at least from my perspective ), after all of it passed, we were good again,\nhoping this would never happen again and to be fair nothing like that happened again, although\nduring it ( literally a day after this all started ) something bad happened again, it didnt\ninvolve gzodis, but it involved me, camera, live, and overall just almost repeated the\nsecond day ( the event ) again by accident, you can take this paragraph as 2 breaking points,,\nbut ...\n\nthere was another breaking point, actually quite recent, me and her got into kinda a fight,\nand as this is the 3 rd time something like this happens i was scared for it to repeat again and\ni decided to just suggest ending the relationship on good terms, we did to be fair, but it was\nsad, i explained why and how and whatnot and she knew all of it, not from me, but yeah, she\nknew, n!t sure who told her, but yeah, anyway, sometimes i am scared of her and her friends\nand i do have reasons, i know and knew why and she is getting better at it, which im glad,\nim hoping after these 3 breaking points there wont b a 4 th and then a 5 th and then a 6 th\nand then ..., im scared of it repeating and i hope it doesnt,,\n\ngzodis was probably the biggest event during this shitty summer, its crazy how much happened\nin this short period of time and its just crazy, we clicked so good, we exploded apart, we\ngot back together, we exploded again and now were good again, im glad, but well see what the future\nholds for us, im hoping i can replace the void my best friend of 10 ( would b 11 soon ) left in me\n\nnow, speaking of my best friend, this summer we broke apart, i couldnt take it anymore and just idk,\nits extremely sad, i still grief about it today, it was 10 yrs, so many memories, conversations,\nwords said to one another, i remember our minecraft phase for example when we used to build\nworlds \/ minimaps for one another, how we used to talk in our own language in 2 nd grade in lessons,\nhow we, well used to now, exchange gifts, how we used to go on birthday things, i think its all over\nand i am very sad about it, its honestly depressing much time we spent together and all for it\nto just end, i understand that friends come and go but you know, 10 yrs, ten years is quite\nliterally 2\/3 rds of my life, im hoping sometime as adults we can meet and discuss our memories\nand b friends again, hopefully less troubled and wiser with a lot to share, happier than before\n\nthis summer i also got in touch with my old friend corbin, we met through minecraft a few yrs ago\n( back in 2020-21 ? ) when i was really into minecraft stuff, he was nice, very nice, i honestly\nmiss him, but he has changed, when i got in touch with him we called and he seemed apathetic and\ncold, idk, something about him just is changed and he isnt the same anymore, he used to b sweet,\ncaring and just nice from what i remember, we used to talk so much online even 7000 km apart,\nwe used to play minecraft, talk about stuff, do random things and stay up talking, i remember once\ni fell asleep on call and corbin also fell asleep with me so i just woke up to corbin sleeping on call\nwith me and it was honestly so wholesome lol, that day nobody was home and i was tired and didnt\nknow what to do, so out of the boredom i just fell asleep as i was restless that day, today i remembered\na song he listened with me on call with me once and said 'this is the song that keeps me alive' or\nsomething along the lines of that, today i literally looked up 'cat singing boop beep song' and found it --\n and i am very glad, i left an open letter to him lol :\n\n> i miss you corbin, if you ever see this and remember this song, i am ari, i remember you\n> listening to this song once, i think you were going through a touch episode that day and\n> im genuinely remembering this now, missing the day when we were on a call and overall talking to\n> u, u were a good friend, although the sad thing is that uve changed and i dont think our relationship\n> would b the same, but i do miss and appriciate every moment we had together, i know its\n> stupid for me to write an open letter to u on a song u listened to 2-3 yrs ago, but i dont care lol,\n> i just want to let my thoughts spill and maybe ull remember when we listened to this together and find\n> this, thank you corbin for all ur time, memories ( even though 7000 km apart ) and genuinely being\n> my friend, and even though our relationship wouldnt b the same anymore,\n> i will always cherish everything we did together\n\nand saw my comment 2 yrs ago ( im assuming 3 soon ) saying\n\n> \"\"\"\n> Lyrics :\n> Baby blue buildings far above the crystal grove\n> Magenta plated terrace with a table and a stove\n> Guarded golden railing just to frame the pretty stars\n> Fix that old piano and the birds will fall apart\n> \"\"\"\n>\n> W H A T\n\nhonestly pretty funny how it went from 'lmao what' to 'corbin, i miss you and all the memories we had\ntogether, i just want u to know that i appreciate you and time we spent together' or something along\nthe lines of that\n\ncorbin was 1 out of 4 really cool people ive met through minecraft, one of them reached out to me,\nfound me, sly, i remember we had a bedrock realm named [redacted] or something, i remember we had a\nwebsite for it, i still have the sources for it, i have a pic of him too, and his phone number lol,\neverything he gave me access to i still have lol, i am very unsure how he found me but i can only assume\nold comments, my website or looking my full name up lol, he emailed me asking me if i remember him\nand i literally begun shaking, my autistic ass cannot handle that much happiness at once, i gave him my\ndiscord right after he emailed me, i cant wait to talk to him, i missed him and was hoping that this day\nwould come, i remember how badly our relationship ended, cheating, ( skiddy ) hacking, destroying, anger,\netc,, it ended on quite bad terms, but i am glad he reached out a while later lol\n\nthere were 2 more people i can only hope to find in this wide world, mff ( shortened bc privacy\n) and some other guy\ni cant put my finger on really and eva, eva and me were friends from an lgbt support grp iirc\nand we bonded over minecraft ( also there was some guy named max in that group which was very cool,\nhe was a skater alien green heart type of person, also rodrigo which was like a parent figure for me\nonline, now a role my best friend holds ), all of us ( me, eva, mff and the other guy ( he associates with\ncolour yellow for me ) ) were friends until something happened and then it all went to shit, i think\nit mightve happened during when me and sly broke down ? i can only imagine what went down lol\n\nminecraft era was mainly about friends for me, but i have no clue why im talking about this in a doml,\nwell its kinda related bc well stuff happened and minecraft was the game that bonded and broke relationships\nfor me, i might b a propriatary software and micropenis hater, but i am thankful i had my minecraft phase\n\nthis summer was really friends, memories, sentimental stuff oriented,, as per me, i didnt do much,\ni thought id do way more this summer, but this summer is shitty overall\n\ni worked on a silly bot called [124](https:\/\/ari-web.xyz\/gh\/124)\nfor my friend group to use, pretty cool, i like it, developed a library called [rebelai](https:\/\/ari-web.xyz\/gh\/rebelai)\nfor it, now currently working on re-doing [pwdtools](https:\/\/ari-web.xyz\/gh\/pwdtools)\nfrom scratch and more modular and re-usable, i got new hardware too, which is nice, although\nits so new my for example wifi card doesnt work lol, i have to use a wifi adapter ( pls someone ( fucking mediatek )\nimplement a driver for `mediatek 7902`, i only have exp in basic drivers in linux, from stuff i see\nthe demand is growing and ye ), currently doubled the ram ( 8 gigs instead of 4 ), a much better cpu\n( amd ryzen 5 7530u ) and overall nicer hardware, im glad i have this compared to my old\nlaptop lol, this is so much nicer to work with, the ram is probably what made the biggest diff for me,\nim so glad i got a ram upgrade lol\n\nthis summer i went from vegetarian to vegan because of multiple developed allergies and intolerances,\nmy self-harm and eating disorder stuff has gotten better which is cool i guess, not a clue how or why\nbut it happened, but idk, i feel like when school starts its all going to go to shit\n\ni tried out for example weed, which was nice, actually the thing that restored hope in my life kinda,\nit was a huge wakeup call when my anxiety, depression and whatnot became so clear and me just like always\nliving with it, it was such a mind boggling exp and idk, im glad i did i guess ?\n\nmy relationship with my parents is getting better, which is also very cool, im glad ive gotten to a point\nwhere i can stay with for example my mother in the same room for a big before my anxiety takes hold of me,\nor be comfortable enough to talk abt things like makeup with her casually, or literally have an lgbt flag\non my wall displayed, overall just like being comfortable around her is something i never really saw happening,\nbut it did, its happening and i am so glad it is, theyre also respecting my privacy more and im just very\nthankful everything like this currently\n\nim turning 16 in less than a month ( sep 10 th ), turning a 10 grader even sooner ( IN 8 DAYS ), getting my\nID pic taken too ( i am restless, ill look even worse than i would have if i slept in it ), next summer im working,\nwho knows if ill even pass grade 10, 10 th exams, overall high expectations, im very scared for 10 th grade,\nand i know my grades will b shit, for example the mathematics trigonometry course is giving me shiver right now,\nim going to do so bad and im so sure about it, i hate it, even thinking abt it gives me the worst anxiety ever,\ni feel terribly overwhelmed with it and its not even started yet, idk, ill see what will happen but oh god ...\n\nim hoping to make most of this academic yr and not fail, hoping to at least get a 4 so i could pass lol, and im\nhoping to do more in terms of self\n\ni feel scared of growing up and its soon, in 2 yrs i will b considered a legal adult and i barely know\nwtf a pvm is \ud83d\udc80 im scared of the future, im anxious abt everything that could happen lol, i know literally\nnothing and idk, im just lost yk\n\nanyway, as u can tell this summer pretty boring and in terms of self i barely did anything, eventwise\nthis summer was pretty bad, but my summer did have some hidden jewels scattered around, im happy im\nhere currently, but i would not like to relive most of this summer lol, but i also dont want for\ntime to go by either so idk, i just wanna b stuck in time happily living my life as is currently\n\nthanks for listening to my rambling\nari\n2023\/08\/23\n", + "time": 1692753230.799684, + "keywords": "life doml ari-blog friends family code technology lifestyle journal summer school teen mental mental-health health vegan rambling vent friendship end blogpost happiness joy hope sad breakup" } } } \ No newline at end of file