diff --git a/blog.json b/blog.json index 00f5215..03d745e 100644 --- a/blog.json +++ b/blog.json @@ -160,7 +160,8 @@ "root redmi go", "tiare" ], - "created": 1734186947.287021 + "created": 1734186947.287021, + "edited": 1734256624.259794 }, "behavioural-sink-todays-world-utopia": { "title": "behavioural sink in today's world \"utopia\"?", @@ -1758,7 +1759,7 @@ "doml-1-2023-01-29": { "title": "doml #1 -- 2023/01/29", "description": "doml #1 -- the start of the series abt my life, mental health, overwhelmed", - "content": "as of now its 03:23 am in lithuania, i am writing this to just write something\ni dont feel like just staying in pure quiet, listening to the rain, feeling the\ncold, hearing my homeserver do stuff, decided to start this thing called `DOML`,\njust me writing about days of my life, what i am thinking and so on, normal\ncontent like tutorials, emotional stuff, sharing of open source news, opinions and\nso on wont go anywhere, but i want to have some sort of series on here, so why\nnot this, this will be a good practice for me to write text, get creative maybe,\nlearn more visual writing, expression and so on, should be nice\n\nright now im quite tired, but not really, its a weird feeling,\ni mean i would gladly go to bed, but i dont see the need for it really\nand i just dont want to sleep, idk, i got stuff to do for tomorrow, for example\nprepare for school, take a bath, clean and reorder my room, do my homework,\nread a shit ass book for school which i only read 49 pages of, im probably\nnot going to finish it in time but eh, who cares\n\nmy timetable for school changed, its shit, on monday i have pe as my first\nlesson, and i already ***REALLY*** hate pe, i mean i never liked this much physical\nwork, but then theres few things about pe that just make me die inside, from\nworst to 'eh idrc kinda idk' :\n\n- gender dysphoria\n - the teacher makes us go into 'boys' and 'girls' groups and i am not\n fully transitioned, although usually im in the girls group, but when\n it comes to grading i get treated as a 'boy' ... i get the same tasks\n as the buff kid in my class, i am a 38 kg stick, hes a muscly giant\n who has been training non-stop for like 3 years \ud83d\udc80\n- anxiety\n - every day, class, hour, minute, second, etc. before pe i get the worst anxiety,\n during pe it usually worsens, but if i talk to my closer classmates, like\n i dont like considering people friends really, but theyre just 'people i know'\n usually, it gets better, but even after pe i still have \u2728 that feeling \u2728\n- pe makes me feel gross\n - i dont dress up for pe in school as per the reason listed in the 1 st place,\n i come to school with my pe clothing already on, on top of that my\n uniform, which is just a jumper so i dont mind, but after pe i feel gross\n and hot, so i just have to wait for like 2-3 ( or now, purely 3 ) classes\n so i could go home, get my grossyness sorted out and dress up normally\n in my lunch break ( which is 40 minutes, i usually come back at around the\n 30 mins mark )\n- hypocrisy of the teacher\n - the teacher makes us do weird sports things and i never see him do any\n of it, we always do it while he just stands there and watches us suffer,\n everyone is dying, like even the healthy people, its even worse for\n people who have shit health\n\nprobably more, but im too lazy to name it all, worse of all -- pe is a mandatory\nclass in lithuania, meaning you can just drop it, which is depressing, after pe on\nmondays i have psychology, which is such a noisy lesson usually as the teacher\ndoesnt really control the class 'traditionally' so to say, she talks, but she never\nsays anything/much if theres kids screaming or smt, so like, im tired and anxious after\npe and then ill have to deal with a loud class \ud83d\ude2b after that its all good on monday,\n2 math classes, lunch break, 2 chems and lithuanian grammar\n\non tuesdays my first lesson is technology, like crafts and stuff, i dont mind it too\nmuch, kinda a fine lesson, then physics and 2 german classes, after that lunch break,\n2 geographies and math, this is fine\n\nomg and then we have wednesdays, 2 lithuanian literature classes, so ill be\nexhausted, after that -- patriotism, which is basically just reading articles,\nlast thing i want after 2 straight hours of reading is more reading and then\nguess what, fucking pe, pe, omfg, then lunch break and then boom, math, theyre\ntrying to kill us fr and after that its okay ig -- music and biology\n\nthursday didnt really change much so idc, but friday is \u2728 no \u2728, 2 lithuanian\nliterature classes, then art ... in the middle of the day ... i had art as my last\nclass last semester and like art is such a lesson you get really out of it after\nit and you just dont feel like doing work anymore, but then they make us do\nenglish, i mean idrc as english is quite easy for me but eh, then lunch break and then\nthe slowest teacher's class of all -- 2 histories, the history teacher is so slow,\nistg, its like watching a youtube video on 0.25 speed \ud83d\ude2b\ud83d\ude2b\ud83d\ude2b\ud83d\ude2b\ud83d\ude2b like its my last\nclasses and i cant wait to go home in my last classes and they just decided to make\nthem the longest \ud83d\ude2b\n\nso yeah, fun \ud83d\udc4d\n\ni also had plans to clean and reorder my room, i still do, but i find no energy\nfor it and if i do find the energy for it, i dont have the time or if i do have both,\ni dont have the brain power for it, for example on friday i was going to do it,\nbut i was exhausted, then got energetic again, went to my grandma, came back, family\nstarted being ass to me so i logically cried myself to sleep, thats how my 'cleaning\nand reordering of my room' went, i thought i was going to do it today, no, i didnt\nhave the time for it, i went out with my best friend and we spend like 4.5 hours\npreparing for her mothers birthday, she seemed happy ( her mother, and well bsf ig )\nso im fine, came back and had no energy, i mean as of now i have more energy, but i dont\nhave the brain power for it and also its like 4 am so lol, tmrw will probably not be\nmuch diff, ill have no energy for a fact and as im not doing well emotionally rn\ni dont think thatll go away tmrw, but oh well\n\nwhen i cried myself to sleep yesterday, it was just overwhelming, i was tiredish so i was\nmuch more vulnerable to emotions, then my parents started talking shit about me, then\nmy brothers started screaming, then my middle brother begun screaming antilgbt stuff to me,\nthen they both begun doing shit to annoy me, then my brain remembered \u2728 everything \u2728\nthen just then, i could add like 10000 `then`s and it would not be enough, so to just\nsummarise, it was too much, i broke in half and didnt want to live around anyone, so i\njust went to die temporarily by going to cry and falling asleep that way\n\nthen i woke up in the morning and started this day, although first regretted waking up\nlol\n\nthen my best friend texted me and well, we went out and did the stuff, this just\nloops around now\n\nomg, this blog post is consistent, i mean i didnt start from the beginning,\nbut its also not so much of a mind clutter as the 'idk something' blog, i mean it was\nintentionally just a clusterfuck of thoughts, but this is nice, i mean i kinda like\nthat i chose to not start from the beginning, i mean it wasnt intentional, but yk,\nstill kinda cool\n\nanyway, maybe you enjoyed this carousel, i will probably continue this series, although\nidk how consistent this will be, i just want this to be a thing, cya\n", + "content": "as of now its 03:23 am in lithuania, i am writing this to just write something\ni dont feel like just staying in pure quiet, listening to the rain, feeling the\ncold, hearing my homeserver do stuff, decided to start this thing called `DOML`,\njust me writing about days of my life, what i am thinking and so on, normal\ncontent like tutorials, emotional stuff, sharing of open source news, opinions and\nso on wont go anywhere, but i want to have some sort of series on here, so why\nnot this, this will be a good practice for me to write text, get creative maybe,\nlearn more visual writing, expression and so on, should be nice\n\nright now im quite tired, but not really, its a weird feeling,\ni mean i would gladly go to bed, but i dont see the need for it really\nand i just dont want to sleep, idk, i got stuff to do for tomorrow, for example\nprepare for school, take a bath, clean and reorder my room, do my homework,\nread a shit ass book for school which i only read 49 pages of, im probably\nnot going to finish it in time but eh, who cares\n\nmy timetable for school changed, its shit, on monday i have pe as my first\nlesson, and i already ***REALLY*** hate pe, i mean i never liked this much physical\nwork, but then theres few things about pe that just make me die inside, from\nworst to 'eh idrc kinda idk' :\n\n- gender dysphoria\n - the teacher makes us go into 'boys' and 'girls' groups and i am not\n fully transitioned, although usually im in the girls group, but when\n it comes to grading i get treated as a 'boy' ... i get the same tasks\n as the buff kid in my class, i am a 38 kg stick, hes a muscly giant\n who has been training non-stop for like 3 years \ud83d\udc80\n- anxiety\n - every day, class, hour, minute, second, etc. before pe i get the worst anxiety,\n during pe it usually worsens, but if i talk to my closer classmates, like\n i dont like considering people friends really, but theyre just 'people i know'\n usually, it gets better, but even after pe i still have \u2728 that feeling \u2728\n- pe makes me feel gross\n - i dont dress up for pe in school as per the reason listed in the 1 st place,\n i come to school with my pe clothing already on, on top of that my\n uniform, which is just a jumper so i dont mind, but after pe i feel gross\n and hot, so i just have to wait for like 2-3 ( or now, purely 3 ) classes\n so i could go home, get my grossyness sorted out and dress up normally\n in my lunch break ( which is 40 minutes, i usually come back at around the\n 30 mins mark )\n- hypocrisy of the teacher\n - the teacher makes us do weird sports things and i never see him do any\n of it, we always do it while he just stands there and watches us suffer,\n everyone is dying, like even the healthy people, its even worse for\n people who have shit health\n\nprobably more, but im too lazy to name it all, worse of all -- pe is a mandatory\nclass in lithuania, meaning you can just drop it, which is depressing, after pe on\nmondays i have psychology, which is such a noisy lesson usually as the teacher\ndoesnt really control the class 'traditionally' so to say, she talks, but she never\nsays anything/much if theres kids screaming or smt, so like, im tired and anxious after\npe and then ill have to deal with a loud class \ud83d\ude2b after that its all good on monday,\n2 math classes, lunch break, 2 chems and lithuanian grammar\n\non tuesdays my first lesson is technology, like crafts and stuff, i dont mind it too\nmuch, kinda a fine lesson, then physics and 2 german classes, after that lunch break,\n2 geographies and math, this is fine\n\nomg and then we have wednesdays, 2 lithuanian literature classes, so ill be\nexhausted, after that -- patriotism, which is basically just reading articles,\nlast thing i want after 2 straight hours of reading is more reading and then\nguess what, fucking pe, pe, omfg, then lunch break and then boom, math, theyre\ntrying to kill us fr and after that its okay ig -- music and biology\n\nthursday didnt really change much so idc, but friday is \u2728 no \u2728, 2 lithuanian\nliterature classes, then art ... in the middle of the day ... i had art as my last\nclass last semester and like art is such a lesson you get really out of it after\nit and you just dont feel like doing work anymore, but then they make us do\nenglish, i mean idrc as english is quite easy for me but eh, then lunch break and then\nthe slowest teacher's class of all -- 2 histories, the history teacher is so slow,\nistg, its like watching a youtube video on 0.25 speed \ud83d\ude2b\ud83d\ude2b\ud83d\ude2b\ud83d\ude2b\ud83d\ude2b like its my last\nclasses and i cant wait to go home in my last classes and they just decided to make\nthem the longest \ud83d\ude2b\n\nso yeah, fun \ud83d\udc4d\n\ni also had plans to clean and reorder my room, i still do, but i find no energy\nfor it and if i do find the energy for it, i dont have the time or if i do have both,\ni dont have the brain power for it, for example on friday i was going to do it,\nbut i was exhausted, then got energetic again, went to my grandma, came back, family\nstarted being ass to me so i logically cried myself to sleep, thats how my 'cleaning\nand reordering of my room' went, i thought i was going to do it today, no, i didnt\nhave the time for it, i went out with my best friend and we spend like 4.5 hours\npreparing for her mothers birthday, she seemed happy ( her mother, and well bsf ig )\nso im fine, came back and had no energy, i mean as of now i have more energy, but i dont\nhave the brain power for it and also its like 4 am so lol, tmrw will probably not be\nmuch diff, ill have no energy for a fact and as im not doing well emotionally rn\ni dont think thatll go away tmrw, but oh well\n\nwhen i cried myself to sleep yesterday, it was just overwhelming, i was tiredish so i was\nmuch more vulnerable to emotions, then my parents started talking shit about me, then\nmy brothers started screaming, then my middle brother begun screaming antilgbt stuff to me,\nthen they both begun doing shit to annoy me, then my brain remembered \u2728 everything \u2728\nthen just then, i could add like 10000 `then`s and it would not be enough, so to just\nsummarise, it was too much, i broke in half and didnt want to live around anyone, so i\njust went to die temporarily by going to cry and falling asleep that way\n\nthen i woke up in the morning and started this day, although first regretted waking up\nlol\n\nthen my best friend texted me and well, we went out and did the stuff, this just\nloops around now\n\nomg, this blog post is consistent, i mean i didnt start from the beginning,\nbut its also not so much of a mind clutter as the 'idk something' blog, i mean it was\nintentionally just a clusterfuck of thoughts, but this is nice, i mean i kinda like\nthat i chose to not start from the beginning, i mean it wasnt intentional, but yk,\nstill kinda cool\n\nanyway, maybe you enjoyed this carousel, i will probably continue this series, although\nidk how consistent this will be, i just want this to be a thing, cya", "keywords": [ "doml", "day", @@ -1777,7 +1778,9 @@ "normal-day", "vlog" ], - "created": 1674958299.062314 + "created": 1674958299.062314, + "edited": 1734256643.654938, + "preview": "b97a4bd25804d1315833a59d353c7af1716c1c55a811f05dcd35460d73f79b84" }, 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