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             "content": "right so ... schr\u00f6dingers crush\n\nlet me explain what a schr\u00f6dingers crush even is, basically i just made this thing up, based\noff [schr\u00f6dingers cat](https:\/\/wikiless.tiekoetter.com\/wiki\/Schr%C3%B6dinger's_cat?lang=en), lets say ur in the same\nsituation as me right now, u hate to love and love to hate, ur crush is basically ( although figuratively )\ndead, which is what i will talk about today\n\ni think ( actually i probably know ) that i have a schr\u00f6dingers crush, i wont mention him by name, but lets\ncall him idk jack if itll be relevant\n\nanyway, ive been crushing on him since around 8 th grade, now im soon-to-be 10 th grader and im starting to have\nmore of a hate for him than love, ive spent quite a chunk of time on him, worrying abt him, thinking abt him,\ngenerally crushing on him, its sad but it happens, oh well, most ppl just get over it, although if u\nspend enough time on a person and like them a lot like me, u develop a **schr\u00f6dingers crush**,\nwhich is quite painful, i hate to love him is what im trying to say lol, ive had my fair share of rose\ntinted glasses by now and am seeing him now, like im not in anything serious with him but hes def more to\nme than just 'some rando idc abt'\n\nanyway, few reasons :\n\ni dont like the way hes perfect, like hes crazy perfect, all in looks, social life and skills, hes very\nattractive, as proven by literally everyone finding him attractive, hes opposite of what ud call *bitchless*,\nhis proportions are good, hands a nice, hes tall and i find his voice somewhat pleasing but sometimes i just\ncant listen to it lol hes very social, friendly and nice and hes VERY skillful, hes like cracked at everything, hes wikipidia\nsquared, he knows so much its just damn, ppl only having specific knowledge at something like me with it can beat him\nat one specific subject, hes so perfect its hard to see his flaws, which is very annoying,\ndue to this everyone likes him, treats him as flawless and like some sort of monarch i feel like lol\n\n... due to that, hes also very overpowering, lets take school as an example, right until he wasnt my classmate,\ni.e. this yr, to me he looked like the perfect, smart, cute guy, although this yr were classmates and i uh, thats\nno, bad, teachers love him and give him priority, even then, jack just talks, but if he doesnt everyone just\nexpects jack to say smt at this point, only time its rlly not that bad to talk to him is when hes not in school,\nits not as overpowering and u just get less scared and actually have a way in something rather than being\nshut down by some 124 ( \ud83e\udd13 nerding \ud83e\udd13 nerd \ud83e\udd13 idc abt ur paragraphs \ud83e\udd13 shut up \ud83e\udd13 talking to a wall )\nnerd lol, i mean i feel bad for saying this but still, its annoying as a fellow classmate of his that hes like this,\nwhat makes it worse is that hes my crush\n\nonce, around the start of the yr iirc, he also pulled a 'dont let them know ur last move' move, basically we\nhad to present our favourite person, i presented my best friend iirc or grandma idr, others presented their\nfamily and stuff, u will not guess what this smart ass of a man presented ... andrew tate, omg, andrew tate, that\nsmooth ass egg looking mf whos a proven sex trafficker, misogynist and an abuser, thats HIS FAVOURITE PERSON,\nliterally nobody expected that from him, the class went so silent when he presented him ... its just woah, anyway,\nthats my first huge red flag for him, but oh well right ? if he doesnt act on it or anything its fine ? right ????\n\ni uh, yeah, uh, he acts on it \ud83d\udc4d obv not as bad ( actually idk, idk what he does in his free time lmao )\nas andrew tate ( bc that would be illegal ), but def makes weird comments publically, for example in politics class\nwe had like a lesson abt womens rights, he literally laughed at it, and not like its the only time, he did it\nmultiple times, although i cant fully recall it, i def remember politics class, two incidents, 2 nd was abt abortion\nrights where he once again laughed at it\n\nalso one more weird thing, i cant recall if it was before the womens rights incident or after, but basically, in english\nclass, him together with his friends were making fun of me being lgbt lol, like im fairly 'lgbt looking' irl and\nclass knows i think lol, although i never said it directly, anyway, as ive mentioned it was english class at the time\nand when they made fun of me english teacher got so man, like yeah, i get it, but omg i literally almost started\nshaking, i got red and embarrassed, confused even, it was such a painful situation, like yes, im grateful for it,\nbut oh god, i even asked 'what happened huh what huh' and she just shut me lol, i feel sorry for them,, but i mean,,,,,,\ni,, i dont think i do ? do i ? i mean idk tbh, eh, so this just adds to his pile of bullshit\n\nanyway, i think this is enough to prove he isnt flawless like i thought and p much everyone to this day thinks, hes\nopposite of that and thats why i hate to like him, hes not what he presents as, hes fucking horrible, i mean,\nhes not horrible, but hes not good, omg, i feel like im giving him such a large chance to look good but hes fucking\nit over, its so annoying, its like the rose tinted glasses are superglued on me, im fucking over this so much,\ni hate it, its painfully hard to get over my feelings for him even though I WISH i could, i hate it, its bad and\new, i wish i just didnt need to see him lol, i wish i didnt feel anything for him and i was free to see him as just\n'some weird nerd rando i dislike', wish i could see him anything but perfect, thankfully my rose tinted glasses\nare falling off at a rapid rate and i hope it stays this way lol\n\nanyway, hope u never have to go though a schr\u00f6dingers crush, get out of this delusion as quick as u can, get out of\nthe rose tinted glasses stage as far as u can, i stayed in my delusion and now im here, crushes dont go anywhere\nusually anyway, so fuck it lol, drop it while u can\n",
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             "keywords": "schr\u00f6dingers crush crushculture culture personality dating red flags teenage love schr\u00f6dinger cat psychology mental mentalhealth school personal"
+        },
+        "transgender": {
+            "title": "Transgender",
+            "content": "today i was talking to people about trans stuff as i am trans myself, it all\nstarted by me talking to one of my friends about it bc she wanted to so yh, we did,\nand i thought it might be interesting to share\n\nso, the topics will include :\n\n- suicide\n- gender dysphoria\n- other social issues\n- transitioning\n- medicine\n- discrimination\n- harsh reality of being trans\n\nkeep in mind, i am no professional or anything, ill just be talking from my personal\nexp, other trans ppl i met exp and publically available statistics, and obv not talking\nfor every trans person\n\nso, i feel like its an undeniable fact that being trans isnt just roses, tulips, cakes\nwith cherries on top and strawberry scented perfume, its a constant fight for your rights,\nquestioning, discrimination, genocide and suicide\n\ntrans people are very suicidal, and do u rlly think its a coincidence,\n[the statistics speak for themselves](https:\/\/pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov\/32345113\/)\nand its only proven by the fact that terms like\n[transgender suicide](https:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Transgender_genocide)\nexist, not only that, theres many other publically available statistics that just\nprove my fucking point, no matter how much i fucking say it, like\n[worse healthcare and more addiction, mental illness, etc ( w : statistic from 2015 but i doubt much has changed )](https:\/\/www.amsa.org\/action-committee\/gender-and-sexuality\/transgender-health\/)\ni could go on and on about statistics, but these are just few things out of like a billion\nthings why being trans sucks, which also should be enough proof for transphobes that being\ntrans is in fact, not a choice\n\ncontinuing the saga, being trans alone is literally close to fucking impossible,\nbeing individualistic is hard bc of discrimination, how the world treats you and so on,\nsuicide rates are high as mentioned, meaning having someone is def needed, getting\nproper trans care is hard, waitlists are long ( 1-3 yrs from what ive searched )\neven then its not guaranteed to be good healthcare, people wait for yrs to get it\nand people die in the process due to usually, well, mentioned suicide, even if u\nmanage to wait it out, ull have to do it again, and again, and again, it never stops,\nthe system is built to kill and torment trans people\n\ni also feel like a 'diagnosis' for gender dysphoria is complete and utter bullshit, i mean\nwhy do i have to prove if im 'trans enough' to transition, do cis people have to prove theyre\n'cis enough' to get hormones, for example cis men getting TRT, they can just go to their\ngeneral practitioner and get it, but oh if a trans person needs it they have to go through\nmultiple psychologists and psychiatrists, get on multiple large wait time waitlists, try to\nget a prescription, lie, face many troubles just to do the same thing cis people can get done\nin a couple of days lol, it feels like this is just an extra step and an excuse for trans\ngenocide, this also enforces an idea of 'transgender = mental illness' bc you have to\nget a diagnosis to be 'medically' trans\n\nin the mean time we can only continue fighting, expressing ourselves, protesting,\ntalk to people, educate them, share\nour experiences, call out, poke fun and just show how ridiculous this transphobia rooted system\nis, how fucked up and deranged it is, hopefully more people understand it and accept it instead\nof being trans seen as a shameful thing people should be killed for, we, as trans people,\nhave to work as a community if we want greater good for us ( current generation of trans\npeople ) and future generations of trans people and thankfully we realised this way before\nand are working towards, so if youre trans or an ally, dont be quiet, educate, support,\ndo something about it,\ndont stick to an individualistic mindset of 'what will this do *to me, and only me specifically*',\nthink about what will it achieve for the whole community rather than you specifically\n\nand for future generations of transgender people, you are 'trans enough' even if that exists\n\nand as per my personal exp, its not good either, i mean its gotten better over the yrs and\nlithuania is moving forward, but its very far from perfect and its still a very anti-lgbt\ncountry which has a lot of room to improve, not even related to lgbt stuff, in general, lithuania\nis piss, online i still get quite a bit of transphobia and many people like to use the fact\nthat im trans to make me look bad, which is extremely stupid, but oh well, what can u\nexpect from transphobes right lmao,,\n\nanyway, the final message id like to leave before going is :  let go of your self-centered mindset\nand work towards the greater good of the entire transgender community, including yourself,\ndont remain in the shadows of ignorance, instead, raise your voice and fight for equal rights until\nwe are all treated as human beings once again\n",
+            "time": 1684866572.491509,
+            "keywords": "trans transgender transtrender lgbt gay health healthcare mental mentalhealth transteen statistic life help suicide support fight rights equal equalrights people social socialissues sociology motivation controversial transphobia anti-lgbt homophobia ftm mtf philosophy psychology"
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